SHINee’s Jonghyun’s death has sent shockwaves across the industry. The 27-year-old took his own life two days ago, leaving a suicide note in the hands of a friend, which cited the reason for his departure.
Apart from his family, he also leaves behind his fellow SHINee members, his fans and his friends. Among them is Girls’ Generation’s Taeyeon, who is known to share a close sibling-like relationship with Jonghyun.
Like Jonghyun, Taeyeon has spoken openly about coping with depression. Their recent duet, “Lonely”, touches on the topic.
The Girls’ Generation leader revealed in her tribute post to Jonghyun last night that the late SHINee singer wrote the song with her in mind.
She wrote, “I still remember you told me you wrote ‘Lonely’ while thinking of me. We’re alike, aren’t we? And similar. I know how you felt.”
The song, which was released earlier this year, took the Number One spot again amidst news of Jonghyun’s death.
Read Taeyeon’s heartfelt letter below.
그게 너고 또 다른 그 또한 너라고 해서 널 사랑하지 않을 사람은 없어. 널 무지 좋아하고 사랑하고 토닥여 주고싶고 한번이라도 더 안아주고 싶었어. 그게 내가 할 수 있는 일이었는데 이렇게 기회를 잃고 후회하고 있는 내가 너무 밉다. 너무 안타깝고 아깝고 소중한 우리 종현이. 전화해서 이름 부르면 당장이라도 하이톤으로 으응! 할것같은 우리 종현이 많이 보고싶어. 누나가 많이 못 안아줘서 미안해 사랑해 그리고 고마워. lonely 누나 생각하며 썼다는 그 과정을 다 기억해. 우린 비슷하잖아. 닮았고. 그 느낌들을 알잖아. 내 인생에 제일 특이하고 멋지고 훌륭한 아티스트 김종현 너무 많이 보고싶고 손잡아 주고싶다. 종현아 넌 최고야 너무 수고했어? 외롭지않게 해줄게.
“It’s you, and there’s no one who won’t love you if there’s a different you. I really like you, and love you, I want to give you a pat on the back and hug you one more time. I could have done that, so I hate that I’m regretting it for missing the chance to do that. It’s so sad and wasteful, our precious Jonghyun.
When I call you, you always say “Yes!” in a high tone. I miss Jonghyun a lot.
I’m sorry that I couldn’t hug you a lot, I love you and thank you. I still remember you told me you wrote “Lonely” while thinking of me. We’re alike, aren’t we? And similar. I know how you felt. The most unique, cool and wonderful in my life, Kim Jonghyun, I miss you and love you.
You’ve worked really hard.
I won’t let you be lonely.”
If you’re feeling suicidal or know someone who needs help, contact SOS (Samaritans of Singapore) at 1800-221 4444 (24-hour hotline).
Image: Taeyeon’s Instagram